Jeffery Richard Darrell McGowan

you were one of the only people who really understood me, who saw past my scars and imperfections and my dark past and loved me for me. we had our differences, yes, but through thick and thin we remained friends and knew that even if it wasn't obvious, that we needed eachother. you were my first real love, the first time i really knew that i loved somebody, we had a bond i never felt before, maybe because we could relate so much. i still have all the notes you wrote me in high school, i sit on the floor and go through each one, every word a shot to my heart, that one note where you finally admitted you liked me and that i needed to leave my deadbeat boyfriend and be with someone who treated me with respect like i deserved. that you could be everything i wanted, and you were. you gave me your all, and i could never have asked for anything more except for some more time with you on this world. i still have trouble accepting that you're gone, and i don't know if i ever will. 3 years and i still cry every time i see a picture of you. at least 5 times a day i see something that reminds me of you, but at least it reminds me that you are still here everywhere i go and that helps me get by.

i will never forget .
rest in peace jeff.

Maggie Forwood

September 19, 2011

Ask My Mom How She Is

My Mom, she tells a lot of lies,
She never did before.
But from now until she dies,
She'll tell a whole lot more.

Ask my Mom how she is
And because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie
Because she can't describe the pain.

Ask my Mom how she is,
She'll say 'I'm alright.'
If that's the truth, then tell me,
why does she cry each night?

Ask my Mom how she is,
She seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see,
Nor the strength to yell.

Ask my Mom how she is,
'I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping.'
For God's sake Mum, just tell the truth,
Just say your heart is broken.

She'll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is,
She'll lie and say she's fine.

I am Here in Heaven.
I cannot hug from here.
If she lies to you don't listen,
Hug her and hold her near.

On the day we meet again,
We'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say, 'You're lucky to get in here, Mom,
With all the lies you told
I will be there with open arms Baby and some day we will see each other again.

Cristine McGowan (Mother)

March 16, 2009

jeffery
i really don't know where to start i need you back everythings falling apart in so many ways... its times like now that i would call you cryin for you to come to my rescue, you've helped me through so much in my life, that no one else could ever of helped me with. i miss you so much i miss everything we used to talk, laugh, and joke about... its so hard i can't to this day believe hat you're not coming back. its hurts so bad knowng that i have no one left to lean on. bottom line i miss you i need you please keep lookng out for me like i know you have been i love you jeffery mcgowan xox

Angella Shanks (Close Friend)

February 12, 2009

I held you for the last time on that frightful night.And all I could say was we Love you and it will be all right.
I knew when we saw you that you were called by that higher power.But I wanted to be selfish and say not now we still need him he’s not yours he’s ours.I am thankful I was with you when you took your last breath .But my heart has been ripped right out of me by your untimely death.My thoughts are always of you and wondering what now what are we going to do .And I know somehow some way we will just struggle through.
The days are long and the nights even longer. And I pray that someday we will get stronger.I know there are others that are hurt,mad and very sad. But we are too and we are your Mom & Dad.We try to be strong when others are around and that doesn’t last long.Because your our Son and this is not right it is just all wrong.You were a child made from a great Love and were given the freedom of a precious dove. Your laughter and kindness and unconditional Love I would have to say was a great gift from up above. You had the gift of making others happy when they were feeling blue and now we are all lost without you .
I have kept my promise of the Christmas you wanted but it seems all for not as your not here too.I have done all that you asked for and all that you wished.But our house is broken and shattered like a dropped dish. There's a big piece forever gone the one that holds it all together. That's the piece that will be in our thoughts,minds and hearts forever and ever.

Cristine McGowan (Mother)

January 29, 2009

65 days, Boo. My God, it still feels like last night when I got "that call". But it feels like I've felt this way for an eternity. I dream of you a lot. Dreams of you alive and I try to do anything and everything I can to keep you with us. I told on tight, I take pictures and videos; I can see you, feel your hugs... then I wake up and reality hits me like a sucker punch in the gut and leaves me wounded even more. I think of you every second of every day. I'm consumed... ♥

♫ Not a day goes by, that I don't think of you ♫

Michelle McGowan (Sister)

January 21, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

19 years old... bar legal! Happy birthday to you, Our Angel :)

Miss you like mad... it never gets easier

Michelle McGowan (Sister)

January 11, 2009

"I'll lend you for a little time
A child of Mine," He said,
"For you to love the while he lives,
And mourn for when he's dead.
It may be six or seven years
Or twenty-two or three,
But will you, till I call him back,
Take care of him for Me?
He'll bring his charms to gladden you,
And should his stay be brief,
You'll have his lovely memories
As solace for your grief."

"I cannot promise he will stay,
Since all from earth return.
But there are lessons taught down there
I want this child to learn.
I've looked this wide world over,
In my search for teachers true.
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes,
I have selected you.
Now will you give him all your love,
Not think the labor vain,
Nor hate Me when I come to call
And take him back again?"

I fancied that I heard them say,
"Dear Lord, Thy will be done,
For all the joy Thy child shall bring,
The risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter him with tenderness,
We'll love him while we may,
And for the happiness we've known,
Forever grateful stay.
But should the angels call for him,
Much sooner than we planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes,
And try to understand."

~ Author Unknown ~

Cheryl Dalton

January 11, 2009

My Baby Boy

More than just a picture,But of the memories,
Long since gone,Only in the hearts,
Will those memories stay,And I know,
I will never forget,Memories are all that's left.
My Dreams have always been simple dreams.Nothing elaborate.I wanted to be a benefit
to mankind.Suddenly,All my Dreams have turned to Nightmares. But its all a memory now...We weren't always together. But now we'll stay a memory, forever
I would not let tears come to my eyes.But I knew you will always be with me,in my heart. Ocean waves wash my soul cleanse me with your smile.Trapped in the glorious years within the memory of belief, lost of all grief.Take the reasons,which once seemed so clear,but never mind, you have nothing to fear.
For you my son will be, forever young.Forever in the heart of memories.Lost in the glory of all time,the wisdom was there within that smile,You see you could have told us,there within lies the mystery.Jeff's spirit will never fade because he is an angel watching over us.At the end we had to say goodbye
but we all knew that he was raised up on eagle's wing
And now through these days we hear him soaring through the skies like a little butterfly.Our very own kind of Beautiful Butterfly.So shed a smile, and grin a tear,For you my son, will be,Forever young. Forever in the heart of memory,We see not through or misery.Forever young,there's a new angel tonight.

Cristine McGowan (Mother)

January 8, 2009

Gone Too Young

I would like to offer my greatest sympathy to the family of Jeffery. He soundes like a wonderfull young man. I'm sorry to say that I know the pain you are all going through. We lost our Bryan on January 27,2008. They were too young to go, but since I have been on this site, I am comforted that he is watching over us from Heaven above with all the friends, family and new friends he has in Heaven. Please take care of each other throught the Holidays, and know that there are people who care.
Bob, Tracey and Justin Howlett

Tracey Howlett (GTS Friend)

December 17, 2008

Jeffery's Crossing - Dedicating Part Of The "Rails To Trails"

http://www.petitiononline.com/21842184/petition.html

Michelle McGowan (Sister)

November 28, 2008